Thank God for this new year! I know it's purely symbolic but I need a new start. Only problem is, I'm already starting it with fears and stress and worrying. If I wasn't worrying about something, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. If I wasn't scared of EVERYTHING, I wouldn't know how to do anything. Why is it so easy to say that I want to be fearless, and know that it's how I should live my life, and yet I can't actually put it in practice? I'm afraid I'll make a huge mistake and have big regrets, but if I do nothing and be paralyzed by fear, what greater regret could there be than that?
Anyway, this year MUST be the year of action, and being fearless, and getting out of my anxious head, and making decisions for myself instead of waiting for others to tell me what to do. I feel like a lot of this is recent, so I know I can change. And no matter how in over my head I feel, I know there's always a solution. I have people that I love, and I love God, and I can just take deep breaths and remind myself that life is hard for everyone but we all just have to keep moving on.
"existing's tricky: but to live's a gift." -e.e. cummings
I already know what I know, (but sometimes it's easy to ignore what I already know)
Jesus says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?...Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:26,34
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